“..And after all
You're my wonder wall.”
Dear Lorinda,
This is a long overdue letter to you..
I still can’t believe you are engaged, to my brother too. Life is comical sometimes, but I am so excited for you, rather, there is a deep rooted joy. I find that to be a great phenomenon, humans’ ability to be that happy for some one else, but it’s pretty easy when it’s your best friend and brother.. Two very special people.
I was just reflecting on love in general. I have had several different encounters concerning love, flow through my head in the last hour, and the greatest was that of yours. Watching movies, hearing stories, experiencing love myself, I still find myself utterly jealous, in the best way possible, of you and Ben’s story.
Now I am thinking of how much I love you, you are my best friend, and you’re getting married! Two memories come to my head when I think about marriage..
Once you and I were just lying in the dark, listening to music, thinking about life and love, or what we thought we knew of it. I remember I was mulling over a certain friend of ours. And I remember for the first time I didn’t even want to talk about it, courageously I wanted to forget about it, and I wanted you to think I was strong enough to forget it. But heartbroken I muttered the most frightening question I could ask right then and there, “what if him and I don’t end up together?” And you, my friend, whispered “I couldn’t see it any other way.” You said you couldn’t see us not being with each other, but now sitting here, when that moment has past, I repeat the same thing to you. When it comes to the two of you, I couldn’t see it any other way, and now I don’t have to.
Secondly, I was talking to another dear friend of ours and I said “ I always thought I would end up with my best friend. In high school that was my game plan, and what I thought would be destined for me because the idea of marrying my best friend was important. Selfishly, I always thought you guys would go somewhere and end up some randoms, men we would need to meet and dissect, which would really just as great, but me.. I thought my guy was going to known, as my best friend, he was going to be around a lot. My family was going to know him and love him like he was family, before he was even part of it. Loving all those traits, us sisters especially posses, knowing all the craziness my family has to offer, he would welcome the next poor guy who would need to meet my family.” Then I smiled and said “..but Lorinda has that. She learned to love my family, no matter how big and opinionated it was, and she fit in just like family, even before she was. And she’s marrying her best friend.”
And it’s perfect, in all it’s imperfections.
So, I was just reflecting on love in general and I thought of you. The love between best friends. I have been quite obsessive about these lyrics lately, and I think they are quite fitting. Congratulations. Now, for planning?
“All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you.”
-Daughtry
