"Daughters of Jerusalem"

Yes, my Beloved, He's the fairest of 10,000
Yes, He is holy, He is humble, meek and lowly

Yes, my Beloved, He's the fairest of 10,000
And yes, He is holy, He is humble, meek and lowly

Daughters of Jerusalem, tell me if you find him
I am lovesick, I am lovesick
Daughters of Jerusalem, tell me if you find him
I am lovesick, I am lovesick

All I want is to be near you, with you where you are
All I want is to be near you, with you where you are

Perhaps I have posted these lyrics before.. It's a beautiful song I learned while in college. Every Thursday night I would to "Harp and Bowl" ..

{The Harp and Bowl style of worship, which features musical prayer, derives its name from Revelation 5:8, which describes heavenly creatures which each "had a harp" and "were holding golden bowls full of incense, which are the prayers of the saints."

A common feature of harp and bowl worship is antiphonal singers, who use the Bible as a song book along with spontaneous instrumental accompaniment.[1]

This style can sustain long periods of worship - for instance, the International House of Prayer in Kansas City has used this method of worship to sustain a prayer meeting since September 1999. Their example has inspired other churches to adopt similar practices.[2]}
Anyways, to say the least it was beautiful, some of my most touching, powerful worshipful moments I have encountered.
This song is how I am feeling right about now... "I want to be near you, with you where you are..."
I have had strings pulling at my heart and mind the last few days, or actually, months when I really take time to think about it. I came to England with some... mhm... hesitation. Not because I didn't want to go, but wasn't sure if this was my calling. I knew I desired to be in missions, or to be an environment where I was receiving more discipleship training. Yes, I believe I can be a disciple anywhere, but, I want to be.. immersed into missions, and finding my foot hold in mission based work, in an obvious, intentional way. Does that make sense?
I feel like sure, I am enjoying myself here, and in the job I am at, well most of the time! I am feeling a bit tired and cranky today.
But.. I am not being challenged, I don't feel myself changing for God, or understanding him or myself better.
So, I have had a change of plans! I am going to try and love being in England, being with a wonderful family, seeing wonderful things... playing house, eating Cherry pastries, watching the Big Bang Theory, Skyping late at night with April, jogging along the beautiful path and sitting on the bench. These things I love.
But, instead of coming back next fall with a new family, I am going to change my path. I am going to seek out mission work, or school. I am going to see where God leads me in that.